sooner than later [old stuff]

i hate it...
i can't stand it...
and it's a lot harder than it should be.
just yesterday i was convinced i was finished.
and then, i hear this song,
another one of those songs that i wish you would sing to me
but you never do..
one of those songs with an apology
or an excuse, a reason
for him to act the way he does
do the stuff he did.
but you never sing those songs to me.
"you dont need no one else...
every chance i get to make it better
I just find a way to let it go..."
i hate this...
can't stand it...
i don't need this.
now, of all times, isn't when i need to be worrying about you.
i can smile to myself
and say i'm free, happy.
but the truth is
i still dream about you
i'm always thinking about you
i miss you.
and i'll never understand it.
and what's worse is you don't know
don't care
don't even seem to remember what it was like before.
i realize that,
but can't seem to move past it.
"you don't need no one else...
you just changed your hair and it looks perfect,
wish i was the first to let you know..."
i hate it..
can't stand this
constant need for your attention,
that, in the long run, i know i'm not about to get.
so why am i so hung up
when all i can expect is to be let down?
"you don't need no one else...
i realized i waited too long,
but, please don't move on..."
honestly
i have no clue what to do.